Monday, March 24, 2014

Two Homes, No Home?

 I can’t help but feel strange being at home.  This is the home where I have grown up in.  I have laughed, cried, loved and hated here.  I have played, studied and grew in mind and body.  This is the home I have spent the majority of my life, ever since I was around 2 and a half.  So why does it feel so strange now?  What has changed? 

I can’t help but feel like Susan Barton returning to civilization.
She wants nothing more than to get back to her life off of the island, as she remains stuck there after having been “castaway”.  However, once her hopes come true and she returns to society, she cannot get the island out of her head.  She longs for its isolation and the ability to hide from her past.
  
Why is it that while at college, though I love it and appreciate it, I long for the comforts of home?   However, upon arriving in my home, I feel old insecurities and doubts arise in me?  Why is it so difficult to have more than one place that means “home” to me?  Is this just a transitional stage, like high school to college, or will I forever search for that sustained feeling of “home” again?